Plead
talk to monster and monster won't eat you.
Victims
upcoming! fun schedule equivalent :)
x Love Matters (Sunday) it's a terrible movie. =(
x The Curious Case of Benjamin Button (TBA)
x Cycling (TBA) --> I miss cycling =(
x Current Affairs Workshop (10,11,12 March)
x Thieves Market OH SO FUN! =D OWL BAG! <333
x 12 Rounds <-- hmm, boring movie? zzzzz *retches at mention of popcorn*
x Visit Objectif <-- LOMO Embassy; lomos are expensive. =(
x ARTFRIEND WAS FUN; haahs, if you consider trying not to fold a piece of turquoise tracing paper and bring it home in one piece fun.
x Knowing (Saturday)
x chalet! (13-16 April) <3333333
x X-MEN ORIGINS: WOLVERINE FOUND :D
Dramas
x Witch Yoo Hee
x ToGetHer (ai jiu zhai yi qi)
x Boys over Flowers
x Grey's Anatomy S5 WAITING S6!!
x House S5 SEASON 6 HURRY OUT!
x Gokugen 1, 2, 3
Movies
x Coraline
x Knowing
x Potter
x X-Men Origins: WOLVERINE
Sewing Machine
x fabrics purchase GOT THEM! =D
x attempts to create: jewellery tools case, purses, passport cover, lappy cozy
x BOOK COVER! COMPLETE!
Photography
x amateur photography --> kinda suck at this huh? (well, ongoing)
OHLIQ
x finish selling those ragged pieces of clothes! (can I give up already? :S)
Jasmine/A Tinge of Aquamarine
x jewellery tuning
x photography
x conceptualise
x photoshop
Cooking
x attempt to arrange/attend cooking lessons once a week with my mother CLOSE to giving up on this. :P
Fleas
x visit the theives' market at sugei road (since I FINALLY found out how to get there :) (wed) <3333333333
Fitness
x once-twice weekly jogging :) hey, relieves stress and increases metabolism! very very good. =) (or others like tennis and cycling)--> these no time. =(
x GOAL: to lose weight to below **kg :D
x dance class
x GOLF! lol.
x kayaking!
CCA stuff
x NYAA Chapter
x SPIN@TRM - NATAS
WISH LIST
x Disderi 3 Lens Camera =) --> Spreeing it! :D
x headphones? Those vintage kind! Plus won't mess my hair! (note* my head is pretty big, pls make necessary allowances. :P) --> anyone want to bring me to Jaben/Stereo?
x Jewellery Case/Box for bringing to Taipei. =)
x Maybe you can get me stuffs for my OIAP. hahas, just please, don't give me a ricecooker. -_-
x New Glasses
x Contact Lens
x Nude Heels and Gladiator Sandals!--> waiting waiting waiting!!
x Casual Blazer!--> bought! but the seller superrr slow. :(
x Robot Necklace & whale earrings!--> think I may forgo these two, whale earrings not so nice, may switch to birdie instead! Robot mahs, idk...
x Polar Bear Wire Wrap!
x Two new bags I kan shang online. Should be getting it. Except dno when she ordering also... O_O
x External Harddisk :x
leave now and monster won't eat you.
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it's just difficult to maintain... I'm sorry if I am boring with whoever's reading my blog with this unknown guy in my life whom most of you don't even know about...but for the next few entries will probably be all about him...partly coz I'm way too troubled to be thinking about anything else i guess. So like I said, it's difficult to maintain, and I should just stop thinking about it and let go. It's sad yes, as hua says, but it's also true what she said, he's not meant for me and in a way he's not really suitable for me. I won't deny that coz I know it's true as well. I guess the reason why I have not let go for such a long while was because after putting in so much effort and all that, it's just not easy to let go... But yet, not seeing any results makes me want to let go already. It's just so tiring... To contradict myself further, he does not seem to be completely uninterested, and this gives me a slight pinch of hope... Yet again, I am just looking at the events that took place at the chalet and I have no clue if that counts for anything coz the follow-up after which was not that good so that really got me confused about this whole thing with him. It's really difficult to tell, but then again maybe he finds it hard to tell with me too, or doesn't he? maybe he just doesn't want to commit, maybe maybe maybe, a whole lot of maybes. argh, let's just forget it kay? Why do I give myself hope again and again, over and over? Again, I guess it's just a part of me who doesn't wish to give up? sighhs, but I do want to move on. If he isn't ready, if he doesn't want to, then forget it, I shall not wait for him any longer, it's just not worth troubling myself with it. If you don't look for me, then forget it, I'm sick of looking for you all the time. I want to talk to you and I know we will have things to talk about and there are a lot of things we can talk about, but you don't seem interested...It's not that I don't want to talk, it's you who bottles it up and seem unwilling to open up. I would love to hear about your troubles and all your problems and argue with you over issues and debate and all that, but what is up with you that you don't seem to be "interested"? It's alright, you can continue living your busy life and focus on your all so important studies and cca and stuff, but you will miss out on love. Now I sound like I'm getting angry and stuff over it. But I really ain't, I'm just wondering if I will constantly think about our romantic possibility if we ended up not together, and if in future, whenever I see you will I constantly still yearn for that? Maybe if I can find someone else who is really meant for me, I will not, but I will never know then if you were meant for me....forget it, I'm typing till I don't really know what I am typing anymore. Kinda just typing for the sake of it. hahahahs, and here I am snickering over the sound of my keyboard going on so furiously with out my brain really controlling it...hahahs, it's just so funny coz it sounds as though my fingers have a mind of their own coz they are going so quickly...like without me even thinking...hahahs, it's just so funny. maybe I'm just numbing myself and finding distractions. hua just told me he is online,but I can't really be bothered. Like I am really sick of looking for him all the time, let's wait and see if he looks for me, if he does, then that will probably give me hope again, but if not, then i think that would be indicative that it's time to give it up... yet this is my horoscope reading: Can you really meet the cutie of your dreams? Well, if you'd stop looking for loopholes, you could. Is this it? You bet. so it really contradicts what I am thinking...sighhs.
it's just difficult to maintain... I'm sorry if I am boring with whoever's reading my blog with this unknown guy in my life whom most of you don't even know about...but for the next few entries will probably be all about him...partly coz I'm way too troubled to be thinking about anything else i guess. So like I said, it's difficult to maintain, and I should just stop thinking about it and let go. It's sad yes, as hua says, but it's also true what she said, he's not meant for me and in a way he's not really suitable for me. I won't deny that coz I know it's true as well. I guess the reason why I have not let go for such a long while was because after putting in so much effort and all that, it's just not easy to let go... But yet, not seeing any results makes me want to let go already. It's just so tiring... To contradict myself further, he does not seem to be completely uninterested, and this gives me a slight pinch of hope... Yet again, I am just looking at the events that took place at the chalet and I have no clue if that counts for anything coz the follow-up after which was not that good so that really got me confused about this whole thing with him. It's really difficult to tell, but then again maybe he finds it hard to tell with me too, or doesn't he? maybe he just doesn't want to commit, maybe maybe maybe, a whole lot of maybes. argh, let's just forget it kay? Why do I give myself hope again and again, over and over? Again, I guess it's just a part of me who doesn't wish to give up? sighhs, but I do want to move on. If he isn't ready, if he doesn't want to, then forget it, I shall not wait for him any longer, it's just not worth troubling myself with it. If you don't look for me, then forget it, I'm sick of looking for you all the time. I want to talk to you and I know we will have things to talk about and there are a lot of things we can talk about, but you don't seem interested...It's not that I don't want to talk, it's you who bottles it up and seem unwilling to open up. I would love to hear about your troubles and all your problems and argue with you over issues and debate and all that, but what is up with you that you don't seem to be "interested"? It's alright, you can continue living your busy life and focus on your all so important studies and cca and stuff, but you will miss out on love. Now I sound like I'm getting angry and stuff over it. But I really ain't, I'm just wondering if I will constantly think about our romantic possibility if we ended up not together, and if in future, whenever I see you will I constantly still yearn for that? Maybe if I can find someone else who is really meant for me, I will not, but I will never know then if you were meant for me....forget it, I'm typing till I don't really know what I am typing anymore. Kinda just typing for the sake of it. hahahahs, and here I am snickering over the sound of my keyboard going on so furiously with out my brain really controlling it...hahahs, it's just so funny coz it sounds as though my fingers have a mind of their own coz they are going so quickly...like without me even thinking...hahahs, it's just so funny. maybe I'm just numbing myself and finding distractions. hua just told me he is online,but I can't really be bothered. Like I am really sick of looking for him all the time, let's wait and see if he looks for me, if he does, then that will probably give me hope again, but if not, then i think that would be indicative that it's time to give it up... yet this is my horoscope reading: Can you really meet the cutie of your dreams? Well, if you'd stop looking for loopholes, you could. Is this it? You bet. so it really contradicts what I am thinking...sighhs.
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